Alright its a bit late on that posting. Its been an interesting couple months since my last posting. And I am probably more lost and found than I was before????? I am not sure what that is exactly suppose to mean either. Let see, about a month ago I stopped talking to MT, its been tough at times but mostly liberating. I find myself form time to time thinking about that lost dream, but realize that it is just that, simply a dream....
Since, the October 10th posting, I have had interesting developments occur with another lady in my life. Yes, another. We had already began dating in that time period but had not became serious due to her entanglements and my own. Despite all my attempts not to, and logic that asserted otherwise, I fell for her. Yes again: I am a pawn of my emotions most the time :(
Well, I have tried to make sense of the whole thing. In the end, she never stopped her entanglements which made me not want to proceed in the relationship. She would eventually come to make me put my guard further up through a series of decisions that consistently ran contrary to what she was saying. No matter, in the end it has given me a chance to shake off that haze that comes with unrealistic admiration. She possess far different values and morals than myself. We argue and I have grown tired of attempting to make concessions that would enable the relationship to blossom. For now, I am no longer taking part in the arguments, and so the void of communications exists....
Monday, January 19, 2009
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