I met this wonderful female almost two years ago in one of our college classes. We were in a group and talked on occasion, from the very beginning I was intensely attracted to her. I tried time and time again to get to know her better, as in a date or something. It took time but we went out to the college rec center and played pool and had some drinks. I fell for her almost immediately. She seemed distant but finally became a bit more open when I was there for her when her brother became sick in the hospital and she needed someone to talk to. Well, that's also when I found out that she was in a relationship.
I didnt honestly expect to hear that, and by that point I was already head over heels for her. I believed in my own lie that perhaps one day we could be. And so, I continued, I worked with her and romanced her. I did amazing things for her, but always in the shadows of her relationship. I even took a course that I didnt need, simply to be around her (I got an A, so it wasnt so bad) I would call her business phone instead of the cell, and never after work hours. I dealt with tough emotions, and with much rigor I finally told her in March that I love her. In April she finally told me the same. She had made it clear that she wanted out of the relationship, but didnt want the drama in her life. I waited and after her, her boyfriend, and myself all graduated this past month I expected that there would be some progression between myself and her. She was as I logically foresaw to scared to move on. She lives with him since we met, been dating him since high school she is 24 and concerned about what her family may think. Supposedly, I am the only other person she has ever been with.
Recently, my grandmother passed away, which was a bit stressful but not too much. But, on her funeral day my uncle passed away as well. I was taken back, that night I needed someone to talk to and thought how much I wanted to talk to her. I didnt make that call. The next day after her work we talked and I told her that truly needed her more then, than ever before. I went on to talk about my frustration with the whole situation in general. I just wanted to be with her. At the end of the convo, she said little, as always. But simply, got up and left. We havent spoken since and that was two weeks ago. I made contact sending her a copy of the notebook DVD, but no note. That was a week ago; still no word. I am hurt.
I have heard that it is not in my best interest, but I was wondering your thoughts on my plans. Those being providing her boyfriend, which has in the past asked about her and me, with pictures of her and me. None explicit, but definitely suggestive of the affair, these include her and me kissing, and simply being together over the course of months. I know that would destroy the potential for her and me in the future, but I think that's something I have had to come to terms with. But, to be honest, I simply, truly, honestly, just want to be with her......
Any thoughts?
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