Dear M25423424,
I love you, and I always will. I was captivated since the earliest moments of meeting you. I was entranced not so much by your looks, but your personality. I think it’s needless to point out that I find you gorgeous. Despite your contentions, I knew that we had chemistry and relentlessly wanted my chance to see what that might bloom into. So I doggedly pursued you, at first I thought perhaps time would aid in my efforts I was simply wrong. So the beginning of this year I knew that I would have to take a more proactive approach if I ever wanted those dreams of mine to have the possibility of realization. As I mentioned before, I enrolled in that class so that I could be part of your life, so that at the very least I would have one guaranteed chance a week to see you. It turned out that was a very helpful stimulant to our other wise previously ailing status. Seeing more of each other provided us a wonderful opportunity to see proliferation of our feelings for one another. I attempted to as best as I could seduce you, my decisions took great restraint at times, but was always driven by my deep desire to want to be with you. At times, I made mistakes; I allowed my emotions to over ride my rationality. But, to be quite honest, I truly could not help myself I adored you, and still do.
We have existed enshrouded in secrecy. With great discretion we have stayed in the shadows of your life. I knew the name of the game when I first became involved. I thought with virtue and diligence that my labors and anguish would pay off in the end; that my hopes of being with you would come to fruition, if only you would come to love me. It has however become an actualization of mine that your weariness of confrontations has lead you seek refuge in the stability of your life, regardless of its inherent hardships. It has been with great difficulty that I have had to grasp what exactly you are waiting for. After all, up to this point you have lead me to believe, that your situation has been a grave mistake on your part. So I have come to the conclusion that you are hoping that J23452345 dissolves the relationship, since you do not have the courage to take hand in your destiny. It is this that has made you choose your current situation over the possibility of happiness; over love.
I refuse to throw away our emotions, our love for one another. I have always known that at some point it may have come down to an ultimatum of sorts, the type where I force you to choose between him and me. In a way you have already made that decision as stated above, your apprehensions of your own feelings have driven you away. I have done all I could to assure you, that if we were together it would be much different. I would always be there for you, never taking you for granted, and treat you the way a lady deserves to be treated. We have the foundations of trust and love to create a marvelous relationship that has the potential to far exceed either of our expectations. It has been an arduous task for me to come to grips with your reasoning for walking out on me when I needed you most, and now I understand. That wounded me deeply; and yes, I still believe that I do deserve to be treated with the respect and dignity that I have afforded you. I can see from your past actions that you are capable of doing so, I know from looking into your eyes that you love me, and that it is your own inhibitions that you refrain. You have always managed our relationship; you have determined the direction, the pace, and the limitations. Up to this point I have afforded you the comfort of governance. I have grown tired of the shade of the shadows we have grown in. I believe that you owe it me, and moreover yourself, to shed light on us. If not, well then you leave me with no other option but to do it myself. I hope that you can understand my position, I love you dearly, and always will……
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