What will October bring?

I plan on much more about this. Since I have been ghost over the past couple months. But, basically this is suppose to be the month of truths.... I doubt that few will be shown to light though. I have decided against my better judgment to pursue someone that is with someone else. Yes, see below. I have been extremely patient and attempted to compromise. So now I wait, for a day that will most likely never come. I sit and think bout simply being with her. Perhaps romanticizing way too much and not stopping to smell the flowers along the way. I have been hurt soooooo much, and in turn have hurt many others. All in this doom fated quest of love. Damn God! God and his cat and mouse games of love and pursuit. The french have a proverb that says "in love there is one that kisses and one that turns the cheek," oh man is that stupid saying so true. Add a point to french score card, and take a million away for developing this contemporary concept called "love." An arranged marriage may have done well in such a fucked up situation. Simple and to the point. No grand standing and insecurities. No doubts! Arguably that is bliss....