Why does love have to be so difficult?

Had some doubts that she would be able to go through with it. And unfortunately, my doubts may becoming realized. She wrote me friday.... a letter were her finances are of prominent issue for use being together. She was "at a dead end." But, where does that leave me? I love her, honestly and truly do. My life is a haze, and that is the only thing that I truly believe to be certain. On thursday of last week prior to her letter I purchased some earrings that were delivered today. Additionally I wrote this letter and dropped it off, with some flowers, at her office.

Dear Ms. MT,

By now I take it that you have received my gift to you. It was purchased prior to me reading your letter. I wanted to share another small memento of my love. I figured that you needed some time, that is why I left you be last week. But, not one day passed that I wasn’t thinking about you. To simply put it, you put the pep in my step. Perhaps it could be said that I have over romanticized the possibility of us. However how could I deny such a strong gut instinct? The answer is I cannot. I know that you too feel what I feel; you too love me the way I love you.

If the reasons you wrote me are the basis for your doubts there is no reason to worry for I shall withstand hell for you; if it is something entirely different I do need you to be honest with me. Nothing goes according to plan, and our venture has already been beyond the realms of what either of us expected. All I have ever asked of you is to allow me to love you. I would pay a king’s ransom to be with you. Let me help you during these difficult times, so that we might overcome them together. Drop your guard; allow me to be there for you fully without limitations. If our day comes with God’s heavy hand, so be it, it will still be a day that I have looked forward to for far too long. I stand by the idea that I deserve someone that will love me 110%, and I still believe that could be you.

I Love you very much,
Brown Buffalo

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I dont normally put her stuff on here, but I thought I would make an exception. this is her letter back today:
HEY, I HOPE YOU ARE OKAY. I GOT YOUR GIFTS BUT I CAN LONGER ACCEPT THEM. IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE YOUR TRYING TO BUY ME. I KNOW YOUR TRYING TO SHOW ME YOUR LOVE AND I UNDERSTAND THAT BUT I THINK YOU CAN SPEND YOUR MONEY ON SOMETHING ELSE BETTER. I DO APOLOGIZE FOR NOT CALLING OR EMAILING YOU. I JUST FELT I NEEDED SOME TIME. I DONT WANT FOR YOU TO BE MISERABLE. I WANT FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY. I JUST FEEL I AM PUTTING YOU THROUGH A LOT. YOUR GONNA END UP HATING ME. YOU HAVE BEEN MY BEST FRIEND (EVEN THOUGH YOU DONT CONSIDER ME THAT WAY), A FRIEND THAT HAS SHOWED ME THAT YOU CARE FOR ME. ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HAD A PERSON CARE FOR ME LIKE THAT. I AM SO SORRY. I CANNOT GET OVER THE FACT THAT IM HURTING YOU AND YOU DONT DESERVE TO BE. YOU HAVE BEEN A GENTLEMAN AND LOVING PERSON.

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